This is a very emotional question. When I was a child, I wanted to be invisible. I would hide in the woods near our house. There was a huge hollow log that I could crawl inside. It was so big that I could sit up comfortably, hidden away in the darkened log. It was safer to hide than to go home. My father suffered brain damage from a stroke and did not know who I was. He would order me to get out of the house. As a young girl, I tried to understand, but that did not stop the pain. I had another reason to hide. It was better to go through the woods on my way home. That way I could avoid passing by the neighbours barn. He often waited there and would call me in. I was conflicted and confused. I needed attention. I needed to be told I was special, important. I would go to him because he told me I was pretty. He was a pedophile. I knew what he did was wrong, but I needed that validation sometimes. I would go and hide on other days waiting for my mother to come home from work. Sometimes I would climb high up into a tree and wait.
What is interesting is that, for many, many years as an adult, I would always be looking for hiding places. I would drive into work, and know where the best spots were… just in case. I would look for trees I could climb or abandoned houses. I would look for culverts that I could crawl into. I felt safe in my marriage, but there was something holding me back from letting go of my fears.
I was able to receive freedom from the pain I held within me through much prayer and much counselling with a wonderful Christian Psychologist. I have forgiven Mr G and my father. I have forgiven my mother for not realizing I was being abused. I am free of the bondage of fear and the pain it caused. I have not even thought of a hiding place for years now.
I give all the glory to God. He is the healer of all our hearts, all you need to do is allow Him to release His healing power in your life.
- Hiding in God by Mark D. Roberts (trinityspeaks.wordpress.com)